Appreciate**

say hi, to my blog

2011-09-01T02:39:00.000-07:00

going to say hi, to my blog
only when after i spent some times at home,
only when i need to shift back to pj,
i will browse my own blog....

looking back something i have posted,
reading back the feeling i had before.

holiday is still coming to the end.
bye home, and hi to pj room.
say CHEERS!!! to myself=)

since there's lot of assignments waiting for me.
time is rushing....

是谁?

2011-01-04T08:14:00.000-08:00

好久都没在这里留言了.

要说忙到没时间,却又不是.

只是每次写了几句,却没心情再写下去了.

这一段日子,过的还好.

只不过,发生了好多事.

要说人变了,还是得说我看透了.

是谁真的变了,是谁真的让我看透了.

其实,是心看透了,却不想说透了.

最后,是谁依然在我身边?

是谁,让我彻底失望?

是谁依然是我的避风港?

是谁,不管我做任何事,心还是被你们看透.

the real side of me ^^

2010-10-03T08:25:00.000-07:00

i keep telling u, i wont angry...
i keep telling u, i wont throw tantrum at others..
i keep telling u, i wont and i wont...
but i finally i did!

after one year we been together, today u saw that..
the real side of me revealed.. not that i'm pretending..
just that i'm the way i'm....
i shouted, i raised my tone, and i cried.
just only because u told me not to do that >.<

sorry baby. i know i shouldn't be so narrowness.
i'm not that princess at home anymore..
people who knows me well knew that,
for my own good, they're not afraid to shout at me just like that.
people who dont know me well,
they will never do this.

baby, i know u said that because of my own good.
now, u realised that i'm fragile.. please handle me with care, love and respect.
i'mma trying to change, promise!

I'm so lonely here

2010-08-12T08:00:00.000-07:00

it was like no fresh air for me to take a breath.

it was like no great joke to make me laugh.

it was like no way for me to escape from my deep end.

it was like no solution for my problem.

it was like nobody knows i did and i care.

i miss my little baby at home.

i miss my big baby at uk.

i miss my parents give me love.

i miss my grandparents give me hug.

i miss my friends all over the world.

i miss my cousin who did hug me tightly everyday when he was here.

i sleep alone...

i online alone..

i play games alone..

i study alone..

i do revision alone..

at least, i started to do revision, study and prepare for every lessons. =)

给我最爱的妳

2010-07-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

好久没有看你这个模样了。

好久没看到你这么笑了。

打从心里的笑出来。

你从不知道，你的笑对我有多大的影响力吗。

很想告诉你，虽然你很忙很少时间参与我们的聚会。

但是，他们从来没把你忘掉。

他们一样很想念你。

很想更常见到你。

看到你，我确实是有太多的话，一次过我说不出，也说不完。

告诉过你，很想在下一次看到你时把你抱紧。

可惜，我刚才真的没勇气。

想跟你说，你依然是当年我那么疼爱的妳，想宠坏的妳。

一直都没变过。

2months holiday coming to the end soon

2010-07-26T07:40:00.000-07:00

2months holiday was considered a quite long holiday.
but i never feel bored, not even a second.
i enjoyed being lazy, laying on the sofa, taking a nap.
hanging out with them, breakfast, teatime, or supper?
no stress, no worries... here i being so simple.
never feel like going back to pj, being a hypocrite.
i have no choice, except accept all these things.
a university, that the management was horrible and unfair.
a house, an accommodation that i'm so sad and hurt to live there.
a house that nobody wanna take any responsibility on it.
a place that we are not willing to stay even one more second.

And life, i must change it.......

Take a deep breath...

2010-07-23T21:20:00.000-07:00

Always feel peaceful at home.

Grapes in my garden!!

Grapessss...

I gotta feeling!!

A happening day!!

2010-07-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

look at his naughty face!

wink wink!!

Yurray. today is our little prince 1 year old birthday. I looked at him, since he was born and now he growing up. Time passed in a blink of eye. Now he is already 1 year old. We love him so much, he brought joy and lots of fun to my family again. Today is a happening day, i fetch my cousins came back from usa and my friend.We hanged out almost everyday!! We went the store, the place that i will never go if i'm the driver.But i did today, i tried on the thing that i never dare to do.Most of time crowded especially weekend and no more parking available.The side parking i was like totally not dare to challenge it.Firstly i tried, again and again.But i failed too >.< Cousins were like laughing non-stop in the car. But luckily and coincidentally, i was trying to park in front of my another cousin sister's photo shop.I was so shy when all the workers whom i knew them coz i always working part time job there, they were shouting and laughing at me.

It was like OH MY GOD.Then cousin sister came out and parked the car nicely for me.Thanks god. Thanks sister.I should try and try again for my side parking next time.We did chat alots everyday. Almost everyday, laksa will be my cousins' lunch.They liked it so much since their first try.Each time they came back, laksa still be their favourite.Together with ice kacang.Haiz... never try it for so long time since i got asthma.( Baby, see....i did listen to u!)

After that, sent my cousin back to grandma's house and so on my friend,coyin. We did chat alots of my cousin internship life in disney world florida.She having so much fun there.I hope to try it too... temptating.How good if i'm there and spend my time with all the cartoons...And take picture with Stitch, since baby said we looked alike.On the way back home, only left cousin brother and i in the car.We saw an accident just in front of us.We stuck in the traffic jam, i cant move at all.We have been waiting...I'm totally panic when i saw people laying on the road while another wiping the blood on his face. Even though my house area was just opposite.Cousin brother suggested himself to get down and stop all the car to let me pass through first.Wakaka. i said please no...never.

At last, all the car behind me cant wait anymore and take another route.Then i did the same thing too.Every car follows behind me can trained to be very patient.One more thing, even u keep on pressing the horn, i will not care about it.Safety first!!Finally, i'm safe at home. My brother was back.I'm really touched when i saw he was talking with my youngest brother.

Am i stupid???

At night, it was the party time. Maternal and paternal's family members attended the party. Oh so lovely. We were all together. Seeing the children playing around.By the time we wanna let the birthday boy cut cake, he already fall asleep. Sweat.... he was like cant open his eyes anymore even we tried to wake him up.

51天~

2010-06-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

亲爱的，我写这你看不懂啦！

因为，你看不懂华语。

你也快要不会说华语了。

我好久没跟你说话了。

你知道，我还是会很担心你吗？

尤其是现在放假在家无所事事的时候。

担心着你的工作应付不来，

担心着你会不会再被烫伤。

每天早上特别早醒来，只在等你上网。

如果等不到，只好又睡回去了。

每天都有很多事情想告诉你，想跟你分享的。

久了没说，我却都忘了。

想起来时，每样东西你却发现我已经说过很多次了。

现在，却不知觉的自己说话越来越像你了。

在这，我是在重复着你说的话。

在这，闷了，没你在陪我做无聊的事情。

吃鸡肉，没你在，没人弄干净鸡肉再给我吃。

没你在这，我不会再吃菜。

我想念，在我闹情绪时，你总是给我一个大大的拥抱。

你几时才要回来？

51 天。。我等。。等。。。

我很想念。。

还是可以一个人生活，虽然还是不习惯。。

命运不能被选择，但是能靠自己的努力改变生命！

2010-06-22T23:38:00.000-07:00

刚刚在一个人的部落看到了这一句话，

命运不能被选择，但是能靠自己的努力改变生命！

命运往往不是那么如愿以偿。

常常在埋怨我跟不合的人住在一起。

一个人的耐心，脾气还是有限的。

有时候，想想如果可以往另一位方面想，或许不是那样的。

昨天，我还是一样跟朋友诉苦了。

到最后，问题始终不是出在我身上。

我和他们来自不同世界的人，我不会跟他们说抱歉。

我也不会再因为你们感到如此的愧疚。

我只能靠自己的努力改变如此的生活。

等到租房子的合约到期，我想我会搬出那间家。

我希望家人明白我的不便，体谅我的处境。

而给我一辆车，让我不必再麻烦人家。

让三餐可以解决，不要在烦恼。

快熟面，白面包当晚餐，我害怕了。

我在哪里住了一年半，生活并不是说完全不快乐。

但是，还是不是我想要的大学生活。

我一直很想去的慈济静思书轩，我还是一样不曾去过。

因为，我依然给人家带来麻烦。

家人都会说，让你去读书并不是让你去享受。

我明白这个道理，毕竟我在哪里的确花了不少钱。

想一想，每天从早上课到下午，放学回家，无所事事。

却又完全没心情读书，复习。

在这样下去，我？！还得了吗？

比较起来，在inti的生活虽然比现在辛苦多倍，却充实多了。

我还是一样很想念。

如果能够找到比较便宜的房子，我想有自己的私人空间还是会改善许多的。

我是容易被朋友影响的人，我需要有意志力，决心。

不然，我还是一样不会感到一点点的满足。

不必说比较，每次听见朋友在其他大学读书的，我的确觉得自己太差劲了。

埋怨这，埋怨那。。。只好埋怨自己没把事情做好。

嘴里常说家乡确实学习的机会少，不能够像大城市的人一样学到那么多东西。

现在，是时候自己争取机会了。

选择了一种自己喜欢的舞蹈，第一次的尝试却有让我想退缩的感觉。

不行再让自己三分钟热度了，下个学期开始，我还是会继续尝试。

加油~

when u're there and i'm here

2010-06-21T08:47:00.000-07:00

57 days more and you will be back.
u left for almost 2 weeks already.
ur dinner, my breakfast.
i wake up, it's time for u to sleep.
so i wake up early and u stay up late to webcam.
u went to work, i'm still at home.
u went to travel, i'm still at home.
u went to shopping, i'm still at home.
i'm waiting for u.

i miss u!!!

i'm sick again

2010-06-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

haiz. i'm sick again. fever+cough+flu= asthma >.<
everytime, during holiday when i'm back at home.
sure i'll sick!!
doctor said because of the weather here.
i'm allergic with that.
mum said maybe i miss the doctor very much or long time ady didnt pay money for that doctor.
but this time is the worst!!
asthma non-stop.. can't talk since i'm lack of energy.
didn't bath for the whole day.
sweat... i'm smelly >.<
hope i will recover soon.
i'm tired even that i slept for the whole day.
i'm still havent hang out with friends.

still clearly in my mind

2010-06-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

almost one week, i cant get to see u.
almost one week, i cant get to listen to ur voice.
almost one week, i cant get to act as a cat.
it will continue for 2more months.

no chance for me to do so. looking at ur picture, thinking of u. babe, i'm pretty much miss u. can't get to tell u everything happened in my life. haha, i'm sure u'll miss my grandma's story right?? gonna spam ur message box!!

worrying that when i meet u jz tell u everything, it's too late. and i will forgotten every single things. told my mum and cousin about u =) sweetest thing ever. once i heard ur favourite song, i smile at myself.

babe, i'm still remember by that time i'm walking into the boarding room. we going take different flight, u going to london and i'm going back home. felt so sad to leave u there alone. once i turned back, glad that u're still standing there and smile at me.

困扰着我的你

2010-06-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

你一直是我生活的干扰物。
我恨了，我的确恨了。
是你让我太累，是你让我不懂如何面对你。
每个人问起你，我不懂怎样的回应是最好的。
曾替你想过，站在每个不懂的点看待你，考虑你的事。
为你寻找种种的借口，往好的一面想。
很抱歉的，每到最后的结局会是我们都不想看到的。
不是我一个人的绝望，是大家对你的绝望。
这个世界，不是我一个人的，我无法掌控。
但是，我希望我还可以改变。
你的自以为是，你的自大，你的骄傲。。
难道，你没发觉到事情都变的不一样吗？
请问到最后你得到的是什么？
终是以为自己是成熟的，独立的。。
试问你自己做了什么是成熟的？
不管在哪里，那个角落。。我去到哪里。。
为什么？你还是每个人口中的话题？
难道，你就是有让人说不完的是非吗？
我厌倦了。我不再替你担心。。我也不会默默的了。
你的事，我的事。。。可以像黑和白。。分得那么清楚。
也请你，不要为难我，好吗？
为难我，去到哪里，每个人都对你的是是非非那么有兴趣。
我一辈子，欠了你多少？
只是，我想走的远一点。。
我也想有我的生活。。我自己个儿的朋友。
没有了真实的我和你，只有客套的我和你。。。
我很想跟你讲清楚。

Happy Belated Birthday to myself =)

2010-05-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Very sad to say that, i'm 20th. it begins with 2 and no more with 1. i'm getting older, it's the time to getting mature and understanding. I got 3 birthday cards as my present, or maybe it should be 3 birthday papers. Wakaka. I know that my housemates will have no idea to choose anything as my birthday present. Coz i'm too choosy =).

They bought me a secret recipe's cake and we celebrated at red-box. However, my baby insisted to pay for the red-box for all of us including my housemates. Oh gosh, people will never know how i felt heart pain for that. Coz it was so expensive and i shouldn't making the decision to celebrate there.

I also received a video including all my perlis gang recorded for me. So sweet =) Thanks u guys. Although i really hope to celebrate with u all instead the video. So that, i can meet u all. No choice, since everyone preparing for final as me too. This is such a sad thing, my birthday will be held during the final or study week.

Spent all day in uni during my birthday coz everyone need to prepare for the exhibition for world optometry day on the next day. Everyone seemed to be exhausted after that. So, prefer to eat, eat and eat at red-box.

Baby promised to buy birthday present for me at uk during this semester break. Although i insisted i dont wan anything from him, as long as he promises to take good care of himself in uk. Argh.. i've been worrying.....

thanks god, i'm still alive

2010-05-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

baby told me, we gonna try to appreciate everything that it really happened. coz it already happened. thanks god that i'm still alive. i'm still not yet tell my family that i did involved in an accident few days ago. on monday night, after taking snow flakes at subang we straightly go to one u to sing k at around 11pm since we have been feeling very bored to stay at home without doing anything.

once we reached one u, we were searching for the car park which was nearer to neway. suddenly, my friend knocked down a divider hardly and the car went through the divider. everyone stopped there for a few seconds and really dont have any idea with what was happening. then, my friend who was driving the car kept on asking us, anyone hurted? everybody ok? i just realised that, everything on the seat include handphone, wallet and camera fallen down and two friends at the back seat actually knocked the mirror hardly since the car was slanted. it was so lucky that we asked along a boy at the last minute. as we went down the car, the front tyre already broken and the rim also become a bit irregular shape and did so affects the alignment. then the only boy helped us to change it with the spare tyre and of course we girls have no idea with that.

we ended up with no more mood to sing k. however there did somebody still not yet realised the seriousness of the car and wanna sing k. but we insisted to go bak home earlier. the whole journey, nobody dare to talk a single word. and i'm still very calm since it was not the first time i met in an accident with the same car. i'm just wondering whether the car still can be safely driven. but we reached home safely after all. the car have been went to repair now. the arm which is the main support of the whole car was broken and the tyres and rims all need to change a new one.

**driving in pj area is not a easy thing. need to be patient, careful and intelligent.
**time to learn, time to gain experience and time to grow up =)

刮大风，还是阵阵的凉风？

2010-05-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

你总是让我捉摸不定。
不懂你何时会刮起大风，
也不懂你何时会是那总是让谁都爱的阵阵凉风？

你好比是风似的，
总是让我没准备好要迎接他。
我都在意，尤其是你刮大风的时候。
因为，天气就会影响我的情绪。

你叫我不要理，
可是看见了大风，
我还能坐下来静静的等待风的平静吗？

何几何时，我才可以学会掌控你的天气？！

Every achievement grows out of the seed of determination=)

2010-05-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

Recently~

2010-05-03T04:05:00.000-07:00

What have been busying recently? Again, it was exam and presentation.There was 3 presentation in a week. It was horrible making us suffer. SWEAT, however the end right now.
Life and exam always been connected. We are just like, we cant live without exam, except one day we die. The next exam which will be final, it's on 24th May. There will be 3 weeks to go, 2 more weeks classes for this semester and one week for study week.

Oh gosh! Been wondering how can i make it for last 2 semester's final exam preparation.
Too much to study, too much to memorise. And i'm not planning to go home during study week, i know i cant really study at home. Home is too comfortable, away from this all strangers, away from problem with every meal. But there's too many temptation at home. There's my family, astro, mt bed, there's delicious meal, there's my favourite breakfast once i open my eye in the morning. There's my lovely garden and river where i used to spend my time in the evening. I can't.. I can't. But i actually miss them! Must catch up with everything once after the final.
2months of semester break. here, i come!!

My gang, where are you all been? I pretty miss u guys so much. HUGSSS..When can we all meet up again after the last gathering. Izzit, only when some of us going to oversea just only need to gather?? (sarcastic) Knowing that, everyone's busying preparing for the exam.
So, i'm waiting for that =)

Street Jazz Dance Class =.="

2010-04-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

Everything is in my expectation.

Everyone looking forward for the dance class.

But now ended up that we need to stop the dance lesson for three months.

Oh gosh, we just attend for once and we need to stop it for three months.

Expected =(

It doesn't meant it was a wrong decision because due to the June and July will be our semester break.

So, nothing can be changed right now.

But i hope everything will be continued on AUGUST!!

Waiting~

无奈~的最终是失望

2010-04-19T06:57:00.000-07:00

一直以来，

我只不过是想劝你，

不想看到你伤心，你难过。

毕竟，你是我在乎的朋友。

每天，都会看到你。

你的烦恼，

我总是希望，

我可以是个聆听者。

至少，让你发泄你的苦恼。

我从没想过要伤害任何人。

尤其是你所苦恼的那个人。

我只想让你好过点。

也没说他的不是。

事情的最后，

你是背叛者，

你违背了你的诺言。

不该说的，你说了。

该解释的，我不会想要有那个机会。

我不气，

但是我不会再理会。

我是失望了=（

第一次的冲突

2010-04-17T02:52:00.000-07:00

Baby,我从来不懂自己爱你有多少。直到昨天，我真的很想把你痛骂了一顿。而我只想跟你说，都是为你好。从来，我不曾生气过你，不曾骂过你。因为，我不想看到你不开心。我也知道你不会理会我的无理取闹。但是，你的一句，“其实，你还不认识我”，让我愣住了。我不懂要怎么接下去怪你，骂你，我说不出一句话，只好静静的。
我每一天，都在让我自己更接近你，只想更了解你在想什么。或许，你真正的世界我融入不进，但我会尝试。换来的是这么一句话。那一刻，我乱了，也决定了，不会阻止你这么做。你想做的事情，你一直以来在做着的事情，我不会在多说什么。只要你清楚，你知道自己做的是什么。那就好了。这是也是第一次，你用这样的语气跟我说话。
总是在你面前装成一副很坚强的样子，说我不会再你面前掉一滴眼泪，最后我还是忍不住了。而你常常说，你不会受别人掉眼泪这一套。我是在心疼你，你也知道的。我想最近，你该有感觉到我的改变。我只想尽力的在做一个女朋友的责任。晚上时，在你怀抱里，你告诉我其实你什么都知道，在你看到我掉眼泪的那一刻，你整个人都溶化了，其实你最怕看到女生在你面前哭泣。你的一番话，化解的一切误会。。。=）我也笑了=)

A simple and nice supper =)

2010-04-07T09:02:00.001-07:00

Baby, u made my uni life happening and more meaningful!

Just came back from supper =)

Somehow, i'm like a "oku"here bcoz i'm not having transport.

every place is not in a walking distance.

except lrt and teksi, we can't really go anywhere.

You told me, if hungry or don't have anything to eat,

please call McSiong delivery!

So that, you'll come and bring me to eat.

We searching all the way for famous and nice food.

Stuck in traffic jam, lost of direction again and again.

However, it's so nice to spend time sit in the car and we chat of everything. =)

Thx a lotssss....

clinics v.s practical in NIO

2010-03-30T06:06:00.001-07:00

full size of human eye

iris of the eye (looked like sunflower)

started doing pratical and clinics on optical instruments, eye tests and diagnosis in 3rd semester. looking forward to learn on the methods of every single instrument. so, for me i prefer practical than classes!! people, try to have a look on human's eye, oww..the iris is so beautiful and the structure is so awesome. since we learn all about the eye, just we really spend time have a look on our own eye. we having eye test with each other, being either examiner or patient of our classmates by measuring the power or refactive error of patient's eye.

but it's true that we praticed till we can memorise every word on the Snellen chart. we went through how a spectacles are produced, the lens and etc. as i know a machince of edging lens costs 90K. ( when can i just save up to enough money to buy this machine and open my own shop?? )

however, we'll struggling with the ocular disease which happened to us. since we became an optometry student, seriously those ocular diseases which we all study on that happened to us.

firstly, conjunctivitis (red-eye)...... secondly, chalazion ( inflammation of meibomian glands).....
oh gosh, is it because we are too concern about our eye and in future we need to treat patients' eye, so we as optometry student need to experience all those disease first as well?
>.<>.<

Exam ~ it happens every month~

2010-03-24T02:50:00.000-07:00

exam, exam and exam..

3more subjects to go.

and i'm mentally and physically tired.

i'm exhausted when the exam comes nearer to me!

GOGOGO!

GO! in order to get a better results!

GO! the exam away from me!

please go away from me faster.

and dun come back to me so fast.

those who r having exam once in a few months.

please do appreciate...

yearning for the mid-sem break to come faster.

mummy is waiting for me at home!

although it's short, but i think i can take a rest!

to be recharged >.<

想着~

2010-03-16T05:41:00.000-07:00

是你让我逐渐的在做改变，

是这样？还是那样？

你让我变得坚强了，还是懦弱了？

我都想配合着你去做每件事。

是你，

让我欢喜，

也让我哭泣。

你让我惊，

却又让我安心。

是你说我没主见，

其实我只是尊重你，

什么都让你做决定。

是我害怕错失你，

我害怕我的本性不符合你，

是我都在害怕每件事。

是你说你不喜欢听见我说，

你很凶，我很怕你。

其实，我也不想这样。

我只想让自己更好。

总是觉得自己做的不够好，

到最后还是一点头绪都没有。

我不想再说我不知道，

我不想再说我不懂。。。

再这样下去，

我还是依然躲在别人后面。

每件事的最后，

你的笑~总是让我放心。

emo+ing

2010-03-11T23:47:00.000-08:00

sorry people!!

i know i've been emo+ing recently.

and i'm emo+ing without any reason.

because of him? because of her?

because of something else?

nobody nobody will know!

but i know, a part of my "emo-ness",

because of that !

please, people wake up from ur dream.

when other people asked me, why do i care?

yea, why do i care for you?

you're so important to me??

please, be a bit responsible for ur life,

for ur parents,friends, and ur studies.........
wake up from ur dream!!

arghhh... i never hope parents find me because of you,

classmates asking me because of you,

lecturers find me out because of you.

please, just to be responsible >.<

it's all driving me crazy!

i'm free from sinusitis currently ^^

2010-03-11T06:56:00.000-08:00

free from disease!

oh baby, i'm away from sinusitis currently.

thanks, dr john tan.

however, there are still 10days-medicine left.

OMG!

i've been worried, what will happen after all the medicine finished taken?

but, dr said it won't be completely cured.

only the symptoms will be reduced.

already 10days, i'm away from tissue.

already 10days, i can sleep well.

please, god bless me!

today i spent alotssss...

2010-03-01T00:38:00.000-08:00

i have been knowing that i'm having sinusitis many years ago.
every year,
every month,
every week,
even everyday,
i sneeze,
i having running nose,
my nose is blocked...
i m SUFFER!!
and i have been used to breath by using my mouth.

i'm agree that PREMIER tissue facotry should sponsor me tissue,
because i spent a lots to buy tissue from them.

however, since this few months i support ROYAL GOLD too..
which is thicker and more tender.
(i know singyee will kill me for advertise royalgold)

gonna apologize, because i have brought so much trouble especially my classmate sitting beside me.
because i'm making so much noise,
but without me, you all lost a tissue provider!!

at the end, today i ended up to see a ENT specialist.
argh!!! it's hurt!!!
not more than 15mins, i spent rm260....
huh~~~ the medicine better cure me alots!

轻轻松松。。这四个字能耐多久

2010-02-27T00:27:00.000-08:00

轻轻松松，快快乐乐。。。
不能耐多久而已。
很快，很快，他会过期。。
很快，很快，他会变质。。
因为，每个月的考试，让他远离了我们。

一个星期的新年假期刚过，
一个星期的考试刚过，
下一个考试好像又再等着我了。
天啊~~~

刚考完试，还真的挺自在的。
前几天到了，佛光山去赏花灯，
也到了shah alam i city，
哪里真是美得不行了！

好朋友的遭遇，让我担心了。
我不知怎样才帮得上忙。
关心你们的状况，却又不知如何下手。
真希望，有一天能够解决。

心~暖了

2010-02-12T20:30:00.000-08:00

我的心终于温暖了。
回到家里，还是最舒服的。
忘了考试，忘了烦恼。
但是过年前的考试，过年后的考试，
我还是放不下心来。
尽力了，还是最后一秒的抱佛脚。。
都是自找的，再多的泪水也只能怪自己。
看到考卷，脑袋一片的空白。
再怎么绞尽脑汁，还是没有一丁点头绪。
只好对自己说，下次的考试一定要填补回这次的过失。

新年咯。。
真的可以穿新衣，新鞋，戴新帽！
慢慢长大了，开始觉得这一切，都不那么重要了。
最重要的还是跟家人朋友聚在一起。
嘉颖，子彦。。。在新年期间就要到那么遥远的地方读书了。
我是真的真的很不舍得。。

姐，你要我怎么办。
我说过即使我真的很不想你过去，但是依然会支持着你。
不想看到，你转身离开的那一刻。
要我怎么做？
当我寂寞时，谁在夜晚依然会打电话跟我诉苦。
周末时，谁还会到B0906来探望我们。
半夜时，谁还会跟我们去吃印度煎饼。
深夜时，谁会跟我们驾着在无人的道路上，到处去闯。
陪我逛街，陪我吃SNOW FLAKES,
买DONNUTS给我吃，一起出唱K。

不要忘了，我们都只有一个要求，请你好好照顾自己。
不可以哭哦！！！

彦大哥，十三年的友谊不是做假的！
总是那么的贴心，总是那么的照顾我们。
你不在，我们少了一只“脚”。
少了一个人跟我们“哈啦”。
少了一个人跟我们讲政治，讲道理。
希望你在那么边可以完成自己的梦想。
还有在沙滩上，展现你的身材，戴着墨镜。。
多么帅气啊！
小心妞子盯上你哦！

两位，我至亲的。。加油。。好好照顾自己。。
要常回来哦！！
我爱你们

是你～～

2010-01-12T03:58:00.000-08:00

每一个女孩都会有一个喊她丫头的男生。

他不是你的男朋友，他可以是你做不成男女朋友的朋友，可以是你认的哥哥或是你的铁哥们，也可以是很普通的男生朋友。

但他一定很了解你，跟你很close。

他会喊你丫头，臭丫头，坏丫头，死丫头，你这丫头真蛮讨嫌。

他会在得知哪里开美食节后第一时间带他的丫头去扫荡。

他会像约一个哥们一样约你去喝酒，去KTV，去电玩城。

他会在你感到孤寂的时候用他的信息，他的声音时时刻刻陪着你，而在你找到依靠找到同伴的时候，默默地，“悲惨”地被冷落。

他会纠结地听你的无理取闹，任由你耍小脾气，还会一个劲地说：老大，是我错，是我错......

他会没头没尾地陪你聊天，直到你累了，睡了。

他会不厌其烦地跟你说：丫头，天气冷了，注意身体。虽然知道你的回答会只是一个“哦”字。

他会经常去你的个人主页，去看你的每一张照片，每一篇日志，每一个心情，却会冒着被你数落的风险次次跑堂。

他会在你的签名上出现情情爱爱的时候自动“隐身”，你问怎么了，他会说，臭丫头恋爱了，不打扰你咯！

他会有小小的难过，但他会衷心祝福他的丫头能过得幸福。

他会在你委屈地告诉他你又失恋了的时候，毫不走大脑地骂你：死丫头，告诉过你不要随便谈恋爱了，不听我的吧…之后又是他耐心地安慰你，哄你。

他会在你上网上到很晚的时候扔炸弹赶你下线。

他会在你问他你是不是胖了的时候挤出一副很无奈的表情，并说：胖你个头啦，你再给我长10公斤都不过分。

他会毫不客气地打击你，直言不讳地说你飞机场，笨蛋，猪头，脑瘫，神经病啊。

他会直截了当地告诉追你的那个男生这点不好，那点不好，还不如跟着他混。

他会手下不留情地拍你脑袋说你笨，但是他也会装做手无缚鸡之力地受你攻击。

他会欺负你，但他绝不容许其他人欺负你。

他会在你遇到困难，或迷茫的时候，极其认真地为你出谋划策。

他会在你心情郁闷的时候把你放在他的后座上带你“云游四海”。

他会在你伤心难过的时候客气地借你肩膀，然后说：丫头，你可千万别趁机吃我豆腐啊。

他会让你又好气又好笑既想抓狂又不忍下手。

他可能与你相隔两地，但他时时刻刻在你身边。

他可能与你之间没有爱情，但他对你的疼爱都是发自内心。

他不会叫你宝贝，但是他会叫你丫头。

你可能找不出身边谁是这样的一个人，但是却在这篇日志上看到了好多人的影子。

他们都是这样的人。

每一个女孩都应该感谢上帝，因为他赐给你那么多如此宝贵的，不是男朋友的男生朋友。

摘自XXX

你在哪里？

2010-01-07T07:59:00.000-08:00

不知，你是否安全抵达美国。
不知，你是否开始想念我们了。
不知，你会不会像我们所教你的，到处炫耀我们的照片。
不知，那里的那么寒冷的天气，你能适应吗。
不知，那里的食物，你会吃的习惯吗。

我们都遗憾没能赶上送你的班机，没能看你上机前，最舍不得我们的模样。
却当看你落泪时，我们心疼了。

我们都遗憾没能给你大大的一个拥抱，再吩咐你好好照顾自己。

总之，我们在等你回来了！！～～～

我们的回忆

2010-01-04T22:24:00.000-08:00

回忆让我们回想，
回忆让我们忆念，
回忆让我们成长。

一切都是我们一起经历过的。
朋友，我们一生一起走，那些日子虽然不再有，
但是我们都不会忘。

我们离别，但是相信我们又快要聚在一起哦。
离别只是为了下一次的相聚。
要好好照顾自己，珍重！

我们都会想念你们，挂念你们。
在一起十三年了。。
我们好像都不曾吵架。

叫你不要离我们太远，却不可能。
因为彼此都是为了自己的梦想。
期待下一次的相聚。

我们互相讽刺，是因为我们太了解对方。
我们互相取悦，是因为我们喜欢彼此在一起开心的笑。
我们抱着哭，是因为我们太在乎对方。

疯过，闹过，错过，哭过。。。
我们要在一起！！

米修，米修，你听见了吗？

2009-12-14T21:45:00.000-08:00

米修，米修，老人。。
现在，我可以说出口了。。
在飞机场，我们被延迟了六个小时的班机，你等了三个小时。
你回家后，半夜再到飞机场载我们。不得不让妈咪怀疑=）
抱歉，浪费了你的时间。
幸好，最后我们还是有回去。
你愧疚因为把眼角膜炎传染给我，看着我痛苦着，却还要应付考试。
更愧疚的是，我在把病菌传给其他人。对不起～
我并没有怪你，而我们一起经历了。
我希望被人祝福，而不希望被自私的你们只顾及你们自己的感受。

老人，你的坦白有时候我还是无法接受，
你想要我成为的那个人，我或许办不到。
我只想说，我会在意。因为那一切是从你口中说出来的。
你教会了我很多，是你告诉我做任何事都要负责人。
即使是当决定要饲养宠物的那一刻，也要顾虑很多。（再见了，对不起，仓鼠）
不要涉及班上的纠纷，更不要太在乎被人的看法。
我知道你想要让我变的更好，只可惜有时候你忽略了我的感受。
我说了那么多，你不会明白。
偶然被你发现我有部落格，你没机会看，因为你看不懂。
你的生活，我决定了要加入，同样的意味着我是时候决定要长大的那一刻。
你或许不会很想我，只希望你偶尔想起我的存在。
老人啊。。。你明白我在想什么吗？

放假的一个月半，我不会见到你。

期待回去的那一天。。。

Home Sweet Home

2009-11-14T05:52:00.000-08:00

have been 3 n half months i didnt go bak to my home sweet home.
knowing tat, everyone is waiting for me to come bak home
i spent my whole day time chatting vf them
i need to tell them wat was happening in pj, in B09-6 or even in nio.
1. dr.anath scolded me for wearing short pants to school, n i insist in myself tat y dun i wear hot pants to school next time.
2. every Horrible, Terrible and Vegetable things happened in B09-6 which made my feel tat my life is meangless.
3. i gonna bring my housemates n classmates visit my hometown during this coming sem break.Yu huuuu... PROMISE!!
4. complicated relationship between housemates n juniors.
5. recommend them a MUST to try the ice in SNOW FLAKES.
6.........
7.........
8..........................................................
n pretty much things i wanna share vf my mummy!! wakaka

jz get bak home from IKAN BAKAR, n my favourite AH KEE mee at kuala perlis ^^
my eating journey.. to be continued tomorrow!!

but i need to prepare for my final because now is having STUDY WEEK not HOLIDAY!!
iakkkkk...

老人与小孩

2009-11-11T20:12:00.000-08:00

突然觉得头有点晕晕的。
这或许是因为这几天都没有充分的睡眠。
我想，这个星期是这个学期里活得最充实的星期吧！
一转眼已经是这个学期的最后一个星期了。
好快，好快。。我在这里都快一年了。
最近，一切事情都很不如意。
太多事情，发生的太快了～
笑过了，哭过了，似乎还需要一段时间来淡化这一切。
是误会，是虚伪，是做作，还是有人在搞怪？
我们都不想理了，只有当事人晓得。
老人与小孩，
刚认识时，没想过有这一天。
想回第一个学期，老人真的只当其他人是小孩。
老人在班上不会多说话，他总是默默的坐在后头，跟其他的小孩说话。
不太爱开玩笑的他，在第二学期，他加入了我们的生活。
从哪一天，他遇上了车祸。。
才晓得，我们是有多么的在乎他。
开始，替他烦恼，开始，很想好好照顾他，不想再让他受伤。
偏偏，老人总是那么执着，他不会好好照顾自己的伤。
但，幸好现在好多了。疤痕留在那里，看到了，我们心酸了。
不懂为什么，老人连接不断的不行遭遇影响了小孩们的心情。
当一听到，他想过来我们家庆祝中秋那天起，小孩们的笑容开始返回来了。
故意到sunway pyramid，买了好多他说他爱吃的那冰冰，凉凉的冰皮月饼，买了灯笼。
只是想看到老人的笑容………
为他祈祷，恶运远离他。
不是很会说华语的老人，总是闹了很多笑话。
夸张的是，老人把桌子说成椅子，椅子说成桌子。
事情渐渐的有所改变直到一次老人陪着小孩们到云顶去玩。
老人偶尔对小孩的事情忽冷忽热的，时好时坏的。
小孩开始混淆了自己想要的是什么。
当老人说他有可能要离开这里时，莫名其妙的小孩在老人面前生气了。
当老人走开时，小孩哭了。他不懂为什么，只懂他不想失去老人。
总是冷冷的老人，小孩没想到老人有一天也是会关心人家的。
有可能，老人不善于表达。
小孩只懂，昨天当小孩最落魄的时候，也可能是人生最低潮的时候。
不说话，不吭一声，老人以为自己弄小孩生气了。
老人也不说话，他想说让小孩静一静，却不知道小孩其实是在烦恼其他的事情。
几封的简讯，老人问小孩怎么了？
在回家的半途中接到了小孩的一封简讯说，我需要一个拥抱。
老人赶过来了。
小孩从来没想过老人会为他做任何事情，在他心里，老人只是一个人老。
老人，他从来不懂关心别人，始终老人都时常在欺负小孩。
老人到了楼下，发了简讯过来说，你下了吧，我在楼下等你。
小孩，傻眼了。
他从来没想过，他会回来。
小孩虽然想要个拥抱，但没想过老人会想给他拥抱。
老人看到小孩走进了，他下车想给小孩拥抱，但小孩却想说一旦抱了，就放不开手了。
最后，老人的出现，小孩回到了比较快乐的世界。
老人第一次带小孩们看半夜场的戏，再吃个宵夜才回家。

I'll find my way XD

2009-10-19T06:31:00.000-07:00

一直在盼望
爸爸和妈妈唯一的理想
五月第十五天
一九九零年
我第一次对他们眨了眨眼
等待快点过去多少个明天
希望这个宝贝快快长大一点一点
身体要健康所有的事情都如所愿

Baby长大以后就是小优
I will find my way
I want a different way
I'll change the wind and rain
There be a brand new day
小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰
现在遇到困难自己就要学会面对
I will find my way
I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now
No matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追
感觉就对
I'll find my way
一直就这样

找我的方向
不理会别人奇怪的眼光
直到有一天
我忽然发现
梦想已经在实现
等待快点过去多少个明天
看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握
想信自己
不怕风雨再多
I will find my way
I want a different way
I'll change the wind and rain
There be a brand new day
小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰
现在遇到困难自己就要学会面对
I will find my way
I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now
No matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追
感觉就对
I'll find my way
I will find my way
I find my way

让世界停顿三分钟

2009-10-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

当我们同住在一起，我相信或多或少都会有些摩擦。
都说了，相处容易，同住难。
六个女生同住一个屋檐下，都可以想象那个画面。
女生的心如海底捞针，随时爆发，随时可以嘻嘻哈哈的。
是谁都抓摸不住，想了解却是件不可能的事。
不同的背景，不同的生活环境。
确实到了最后，让我们陷入困境。
不是我想说得那么严重，而是我们只是在伪装着自己。
难道，你们都没有想过要搬出去的念头吗？
只是，合约已经签了两年，除非找到人搬进来，不然。。。是不可能的吧？
我们尝试着融入每个人的生活，了解你们的生活习惯。
只可惜，有些人常常爆发的小姐脾气，让我们都无奈了。
说好了，同住在一起，大家要好好相处，好好忍让。
有些人付出得比较多，有些人付出得比较少，我们都不会计较。
我没付出过很多，我还在学习当中。
但，从来都没付出过的人呢？也还是一样，不会体谅别人的感受。
总是认为自己很伟大，却没想想你为这间家做过什么事？？
请数一数。。。。
让世界停顿三分钟，
只因为没付出过而埋怨别人做得不够好。
只因为从来没顾及过别人的感受，关心这个家。
只因为都一直躲在自己的世界，而不像融入这个家。
这个家，他假了，我想让他放假了，因为我不想假了。
我只想活在我想要的世界里，继续当那个我。

亲爱的，是封给你的信

2009-09-17T09:08:00.000-07:00

近来，在你的部落格里，是我第一次发现你稍微快乐点的字迹。
我好开心，因为我看见你笑了。
最近，发生的事都让人措手无策，我们明白你的感受。
追逐着你部落格的字迹，我没给你留言，是因为我试了再试还是不行。
想想，你比去年刚认识的你，成熟，坚强多了。
在学业上，你总是付出比别人多的努力，争取自己想要的。
明白你想逃离这里，我曾劝过你，不要到澳洲读书。
但是看了你的部落格，我决定我还是会支持你。
不会再劝你留下来，我知道那是你想要的。
虽然有万分不舍得，怕你不能适应那边的生活，还是会默默的支持你。
只要你可以答应我们不再当爱哭鬼，在那里要好好照顾自己，就好了。
我更担心你会哭，因为我再也不想看到你落泪。
因为生活遇到的挫折，你哭了又哭，我们都心疼了。
却总是，帮不上你的忙。
只晓得，当你冷静下来，你还是最棒的。
成绩方面，你怕你会变的懒惰，我相信，是你想要的，你就会撑到底。
有你这位朋友，是我们的荣幸。
能够到了深夜，还跑到你那里，把你载回来我们家。
你说你想吃snow flake,恐怕这星期都没时间去咯。
因为，我们打算带你去个特别的地方。希望行得通=）
想起来，我们还挺坏的，三个半夜和室友们在路上乱闯。
最后，真的遇见了警察，超惊险的！
记得哦，你是我们的美好回忆^^
加油！

一觉醒来。。

2009-08-28T03:16:00.000-07:00

熬夜了快一个星期，累都累垮了。
整整八天的测验，不拼有不行，但却又感觉懒懒的。
还是怕考不好，却让自己失望，失去存在的意义。
考了五天，今天终于可以暂停一下，下个星期再接下去。
坚持到最后，我还是倒了，病了，累了。
刚一放学回来，就急着倒下去，睡个好觉。
可却又很难入睡。两个星期的测验是我一个星期的恶梦！
最后，还是睡着了。但也还是梦见了。
这次的梦却是甜美的，因为那是我渴望的。
我有多想，多想，我就永远活在那梦里了。
是你，哥。已经半年没见到你了。
一个放假，我去了槟城三次，去碰碰运气是否可以在你做工的地方，只想在远方看到你。
但却还是看不见你的踪影，我也没想过要打给你。
没见到你是我这个放假唯一的遗憾！
你从来不知道，我有多么希望，我可以，我真的可以跟你好好的聊天。
我们并没有吵架，但也是没什么话说的。
我们都不曾先开口。要跟你说话，需要我提起了勇气。
在梦境里，是我好久好久没回家了。
一到家，是你，是你，在客厅等我回来。
一看见我，并不是我先开口叫哥，而是你先开口。
嗯，你回来了。
你还跟我说了好多话哦！你开始关心了我。
我有多么的安慰啊！因为，你从来不知道我有多希望你常回家，我可以看到你。
你拿东西给我吃，帮我拿东西，你问我在这里过得好吗？
我有多想告诉你，我好想你…………
我们还可以像小时候那样吗？
每次，有好多话想说，但又说不出口。
是因为你有了女朋友，你跟家人的话也多了。
想你跟家人的关系越来越好，跟我们说好多话题。
多想，沉醉在那个画面里，不要再醒过来。
有哥哥的疼爱，我想胜过了大部分。
多么希望，每一年生日，可以吃到哥为我做的生日蛋糕。
我也相信，哥，你其实是很疼爱，在乎我们的，只是你从来不说出口。
我哭了。。。

我也相信，你该不会看到这个吧！

Sorry to u, for making u disappointed on me. Sorry to myself, for dreaming in my own world.

2009-08-13T06:07:00.001-07:00

"No use if u just say it out and didnt take any action!" my dear, u told me this.
GOSH! i jz realised tat how serious condition, i hv fall into...
i told u, i wanna make a difference,i told u again n again.
bt now,i have no more excuse to say after u told me this...
seriously, i m ...
it seemed like u all are moving in front, moving toward the life they wanted for so long time ago.
n i m still on the same step!
although, u r bz searching for wat u want,i knew u r tired n u ever think to give up.
bt finally, u found!ur life is meaningful, n the most important thing u live happily, u no need to rely on others, no need to live for others.
how about me? i m still the same! i spent a lot of money n finding excuse for myself for being so.
i hate the life being now.
although i know sometimes need to enjoy n relax, bt it seemed like i m enjoying most of the time.
hanging around after class or staying at home doing nothing,except online n do some homeworks.
izzit this kind of live, i want?
can i make it difference!

small gathering between us _

2009-08-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

cnee n jyin stay overnight at my hse.

**syee, lian, waiting for u all**

"yuan steamboat"...

finally, we met again^^

wow!!

since i came to study in kl january, this was the 1st small gathering between us**** my primary-secondary friends.

everyone is bz+ing vf their own stuff n studies.

it was so hard to meet vf u all, need to make an appoinment!!

i have an interesting day vf u guys tat night joined with my housemates.

Not much days of holiday left....

2009-07-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

jz came bak from yumcha vf terence, dewinn and chianee. this was the 1st time, i enjoyed my holiday so much, since most of my friends were in holiday too. we hang out yumcha, chatting, n we still realised tat no matter how much time was given, still not enough for us. we retrieved our memories in school last time, n shared our stories in uni right now. wat had we been experienced, although we cant spend our time together, bt really hoped everyone can feel it.

it had been 2months no need to go for school, no need to strive for exam, no need to prepare for presentation. however, the happiest time always passed in a blink of eyes. 12 more days, we need to start our 2nd semester again. oh gosh, 9 subjects? i can afford it? hope the next sem will be smoothly n pass all subjects. i planned to stop helping in cousin's photo shop tomorrow, but she really hopes i can help her until this saturday since i have not much thing left to do be4 going bak selangor n i made a joke vf her tat i hope she can give me a high salary.

watching spongebob square pants right now n i hope to have a spongebob blanket!! imagine...oh gosh, how old m i? 19 or even younger? although the actual age is 19, but i m wondering y most of the aunty n uncle think i m jz in secondary school??? i felt so weird, was it because my face still looked like a child, or my casual wearing made them felt so? anyway, i m still very interested in cartoons, i like it n i enjoyed it.

i m so happy n excited when my mum told me my brother is coming bak this sunday, since cny until now, i have not been meet him. his works made him bz, n my studies made me cant always bak to hometown. i hope this time he can bring his gf along missing him ^^

长假~~

2009-07-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

在考试的最后一天，意外得知消息说，假期延长了。真的好难的哦!自从中五生涯结束后我从来没有享受过那么长的假期。是两个月耶！那时的心情的确是除了兴奋，还是兴奋。

只想到怎么一来，我可以好好的休息，在自己的家享受了。

转眼间，假期只剩下最后的一个月。

当无所事事时，真的很想现在就马上开学，因为天底下没有白吃的午餐。

我们只不过是在先甜后苦，下个学期我们毕竟会是吃尽了苦头。

刚巧，表姐刚生了个小宝宝所以没办法打理他店里的一切。我便在店里帮忙。不知不觉，我在她店里也混了半个月了。等她从出江湖，我就真的要退休了。幸好有其他员工的帮忙，不然我可是会把她店里的帐单都搞扎了。有时候，还蛮压力的因为毕竟表姐指定要我帮她看管一切金钱上的出入。我还担心有任何差错，我可是没能力负责呢！在那里帮忙还挺不错的，毕竟我常常趁aunty去顾另外一间店时，把那里的事务都学会了。现在，我学会了如何帮人家拍照，就连没什么员工会用的那调正照片色数的机器我也会了哦！虽然不是很熟练。

每回洗几张照片，我都会站在机器旁，欣赏我自己的作品。如果可以帮自己洗照片，那何尝不是件很有成就感的事！但是，不是每一次我都把照片的色数调得刚刚好的。而我还蛮常出错的。今天，当我在帮人家拍照时，很抱歉我把你的大头照拍的不那么好看。你的头歪掉了。我一再尝试把照片的色数调正得刚刚好，却把12张大头照调得那么难看。又不蓝，有不红，又不黄的，奇怪就是了！不好意思aunty,我不敢让你知道我都在浪费你的照片纸。

只想在店里帮忙到宝宝满月为此而已，毕竟这半个月的打工我还真的没什么时间待在家里。在家里可以跟阿嬤，姑姑还有妈“哈啦”一些有的没的，看见她们笑是我最大的成就感呢！每晚，我们一家一起看欢喜台可是最温暖的时候，可以和公还有阿嬤一起谈剧情。过后肯定会跟爸还有妈一起去兜兜风。没有目的地，没有理由的。这可是爸这几十年的习惯，更是风雨不变。看见爸只问我和弟想吃什么宵夜，却没问妈，妈吃醋的样子，我爆笑了。一早，一把眼睛睁开就有公为我们买好的早餐。好幸福哦！

考到了摩托的驾照，不会再给妈碎碎念的，奇怪的是她是不会让我驾的。和弟一起学摩托的期间，毕竟有好处。那个时候，我们终于可以好好坐下来谈天。姐其实是很想知道你心里在想什么的，不想你和哥一样那么酷，把全部心事都只跟朋友分享。虽然你是羽球州手有几年的时间了，但是你也不好因为这样的荒废学业啊！我想校方给你那自由出入学校的权力也把你给宠坏了。还有哥，我可是从新年到现在都没再见到你了。你回家的时候，我没假期，我回来了，你却说你在忙。我们都很想你啊！希望在我回去学校之前，你会有空回家一趟。妈说，你以前常用没车为借口所以没回家。你现在可是有车了哦！别说你没空？要陪女朋友啊？

100 & 101

2009-06-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

I will always say that, 100 and 101 will always be together. As everyone knows that both of them will never separate. Just like us!!!

how was the relationship started? ........
When first we talked, we just realise that we have been in the same physic class for already a few months ago. You're always sitting in front, and i was hiding behind there. Everthing starts to happen, when i first moved to 101 from 301. I knew you're my neighbour and i never dare to talk to you. Sometimes later, we smile at each other and because of chia nee knew u before, we started to talk with each other.

how was the relationship going on and on? ........
In physic class, i sit beside you andyou're helping me alot in my studies. We tried to attend the class together but sometimes it was so hard for me to wake you up actually. As i told you before, your clock was ringing and already wake up all those people in 1st floor except waking up urself. Hehe. It was so bad to say so.

You were pretty helping me alot in my studies in HSC and you really never realised that and I didnt know how to appreciate you. You gave me alot of support and i became more mature now. The most important was the tough moment last year, you, chia nee, sing yee, jiayin, yuen nee and so many others were by my side. Thanks girls.
We shared most of our time in hostel, we bathed while we chatted in toilet, we talked while both of our door keep opening and we cooked!! We shared our stories , we shared our memories and experiences, we already shared our whole grandmother's stories..... and we knew that our stories keep updating, so we must catch up with each other! 100, please promise me !

Our memories updated in penang last weekend. I miss so much of ur life in the past few months. I'm not purposely want to tell u a lie, just because you're too cute when you believe me and you realised i'm just joking.

Our memories still staying and flying in penang and kl, when do you want to continue it in perlis with Jiayin?? wakakaka

I'm so glad to have a friend like you^^

too much to say my dear 100,
too much to tell my dear 100,

too much to share with u,

too much i miss u,
too much we love u!

^^我还是快乐的^^

2009-06-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

有时候，寂寞时才会想起你,最近你过得怎样了？

不敢给你发简讯，也看你不再像以前那样每天都在线上了，

我不晓得你的部落格怎么好久好久都没再有新梗了。

知道你如果听见有人常常跟随着你的部落，你会是快乐的。

现在，我不会再每天去观缆你的心情日记并且故意创高点击你部落格的人数。

听你说，你没再打工了，那又在忙些什么呢？

雨后总会是天晴的，乌云和恐怖的打雷最终都过去了，因为那是短暂的。

彩虹始终存在着，只在于人们是否发现他的存在？

彩虹是等待着那灿烂的太阳让他不再寂寞，也让他被发现了。。。。

我的无奈，我的怒气

2009-06-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

就因为放假闲着没什么事情做，我到了最后一分钟才会答应跟弟一起去练习摩托车的。而且还是拿个执照来摆美的，因为我根本不会有机会骑啦！也为了不要让妈说我每次做事情都只是半途而废。我去学了，去那里浪费时间，等了再等！本来去练了一次就放弃的我，真的彻地放弃了，我还说我不会再去那里了！日晒雨淋的，晒到都快烧焦了啦！本来还想说刚变白了一点，难得！现在，还要是练得一身汗的。那都算了，还是付人家钱，给人家骂到狗血淋头！我都快被气疯了，他们怎么一点都没顾虑到我们啊！我又不是故意不要练好的，我是体力有限好不好？虽然朋友都说我是暴徒，常把东西弄坏，那现在呢？我连基本骑摩托车的步骤都做不好啦！我还是已经费了吃奶的力气好不好？我现在还是双臂的肌肉可是痛得要死啦！搞到我现在，三把火在头上的？你看不出我在气吗？为什么我还要对你强颜欢笑啊？给我听着！我还幻想把整个铁帽丢过去呢！最后，把你整凉摩托摔在地上，我只好说我虽然不是故意的，但我内心是多么的爽快！不是每个人天生就会骑摩托啦！！！！真是不近人情，我好无奈哦！都不懂我真的很用心的在学啦！我是真的要考起驾照的！等着瞧！

只是说说而已。。

2009-05-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

本来还以为，上一次会是看到你的最后一次了。。
因为，那一次你告诉过我说，下次来不一定会再看到你了。。
你说你将会调到另外一间宠物店去了。。
回来后，我才懊恼说，为何我却忘了问你被调到哪一间呢？？
怎么知道，今天无意间，跟朋友到那里附近吃东西再到那一间宠物店买东西时。。
竟然会看到你。。你呆了几秒钟。。我跟你打声招呼，你才回过神来。。
没想到你的第一句话竟然会是“我还以为你不来了。。”
其实，我还没想到会再一次见到你。。。
过后，你才告诉我说，下个星期你就会换了。。。
你不在，我们该不会再去那宠物店逛那么久吧！
你不在，那里该不会有其他店员让我们和很多小狗狗玩吧！
你不在，没有人再会跟我们说狗狗的故事了。。。
你告诉我说，你会被调到你家附近的那间宠物店～Puchong-Carefour
我想我们该没有什么机会到那里去吧。。毕竟离我们家有一段的距离
说真的，我根本就不懂你叫什么名字。。
你好，算是新朋友的朋友，有缘我们再相见。。。不要忘了我哦。。
**也不要懊恼我每次问你那些奇怪关于狗狗的问题。。哈哈～～

Happy+ing !!

2009-04-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

Last night, we went to Pudu to bring my housemate's bf who was my darl's darl to our house. Nice to meet him ^.^. It had been a long time, we never felt so happy together just like today. As usual, we went to Midvalley by lrt to Bangsar and took a shuttle bus to Midvalley. Although, we didn't have much more money with us but we felt happy too. Because it was after an exam even tough it had been after a week ago? Because two more person with us? My housemate's bf and our classmate? No matter how, we had a window shopping and we ate a a lot!!! It was quite amazing, after Kim Gary at around 4pm, we having ice-blended and took away crispy chicken of "Shi Lin" before we went back home. After our dinner, we ordered delivery of McD again... wow wow wow.. i'm so full now.. feeling like my internal organ around my adbomen are going to pop-out! Planned to go for bowling, but ended up vf shooting basketball and playing drum at the "dingding" centre. There was the Kevin from 女人我最大giving the explanation for the cosmetic products, ELLE, Espirit and so many others exhibition at Midvalley. The most irritating thing happened with me was my useless Touch n Go card. I'm not sure wat had happened to it.. it cant be used by now! It made me inconvenient and wasting time. U know? I cant GO because I CANT TOUCH now! Wakakaka...

好想,好想

2009-04-04T13:05:00.000-07:00

很想改变现在的生活
我却剪了短发
他们都问我受了什么刺激,
我都会说是那男的害的..
其实只不过是个玩笑
长头发,我厌倦了.
现在只想让一切有所改变
我害怕,害怕要过回像去年的生活
总觉得,那不是人过的
不想每天为了上课,还是要读书
不想每天懊恼着,我为什么又考不及格了
不想每天放学回来,还是要躲在那潮湿的四方格角落里

这里没有新鲜的空气
这里没有我想吃的
这里没有家里的温暖
这里没有家乡的味道
这里没有河边的冷风
这里没有山坡,稻田
这里没有机会让我去兜兜风
这里依然没有空地让我散散心
我只不过想上完课回来,透一透气

朋友们,我的兄弟,我的姐妹
我好想好想永远在你们身边,不要离开
想回以前我们在一起的日子是多么的难忘
想回以前,我们曾吵过架..
现在,我们却找不到任何理由来闹乱子了.
不管你们到了世界的哪个角落,我依然很想你们.
不曾忘记过,我们是一起熬过来的!加油亲爱的...

亲爱的小宝贝..

2009-03-23T09:12:00.000-07:00

刚出世不久的宝宝

一个星期左右

急着要长大

抢母奶喝

挤。。挤！挤！

爸爸。。胖到像球一样圆

亲爱的小宝贝,你是伟大的母亲,你也是恐怖的小家伙. 你生了八位宝宝,一位不见了,应该是在你肚子里了. 我没想过要伤害你的宝宝,你却误会了,宁愿把他吃了. 而我,再也找不回他了. 现在,剩下了你的七位小可爱..其中一只或许是营养不良还是有缺陷,特别小只.看了都心疼,不懂他能不能熬过来.希望他能够好好的生活下去.看在眼里,我却帮不了什么忙,只能放多点食物给他吃.我看着他们一天一天的长大,从红色的皮肤到现在长出毛来了.从没看见眼睛到现在睁开了.. 从无法支柱的脚到现在会走路了...却还是到不了妈妈每次逃避被喝奶躲起来的地方...而爸爸是最可怜的,常常没水喝,惨遭差点渴死的命运.舒适的家被妈妈和宝宝占据了,没了运动圈圈,无法运动,也快惨遭胖死的命运.七位宝宝，还没为你们取名字哦？？再想想。。。

过一段时间,我会让你们一家团聚咯!!!哈哈!

感谢你们的陪伴让我不再寂寞宝贝￥￥

为什么？你真的要来了

2009-03-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

你就是那“乌云”，你控制这一切，一直以来你说你很伟大，坚持着自己的信念说你就是那“乌云”，你说虽然你是阴暗的，但是你却是带来欢乐。你以为，你来了，你又走了，你带来的是那倾盆大雨，让自然界有了一份清新感，人们有了新希望。但是你从来不知道，你带来的大雨把人们给淋湿了，你让人们因为你而感到忧郁，深感懊恼，你也让人们生病了。其实，你只不过带来了，人家不想要的。你来得突然，却让人从来没有心理准备，天一开始暗，雨就开始下个不停！你带来惆怅的心情，却从来没听取别人的意见就一意孤行。。你的狠心，从来没体谅过别人的感受。。为什么？你从来不知道你是多么的恐怖，没有人可以猜测到下一秒你是否会出现，却要全部人每天为你而战战兢兢。怀疑着你会不会突然又把女孩更害怕的“雷”带来了！

最终，你还是出现了。。。。你还把那“雷！雷！雷！”都带来了。。。好难接受的事实！

祝福你。。你要快乐

2009-03-08T11:24:00.000-07:00

我该说恨吗？现在应该不会吧！
你说的每一句话，你喜欢的，不喜欢的，我都不曾忘记，
你做的每一件事，我都在意，你却伤害了我，你说你是无心，那无辜的会是谁呢？
就因为他，你要伤害全部想对你好的人？
你不是故意的，你是我第一个有勇气想跟家人分享的人，我想对你好，你都看在眼里。
没有事情瞒的过你，没有事情是你不懂。我只想说为什么到现在你才肯告诉我？
你现在才懂，那你当初就不要给予人家希望！！
你不要说那么多，你不要记得我上课的时间，就不要理我。。
明白被一个人深深伤害过，身边陪着你一起的人。。你都会对他们有着不同的感觉。
我知道你也不想伤害任何人，因为你常说不管你做什么，却只想身边的人因为你而开心。
既然，你懂了。真的希望没有下个被伤害的人。
别再轻易把爱说出口。
想给你的礼物，会是一份送不出的礼物，却有着我对你满满的祝福。

我真的只想看到你开心了。
你说过的，我不会忘记。
你曾经给我的陪伴是值得回忆的，我会永远相信那时候你说的是真心的，你回来看我也会是个惊喜。
那十五的夜晚，在河边到凌晨也是难忘的。。
你的步伐停下来了，我只好说我不等你了。。
祝福你，一定要快乐。。好好照顾自己，找到你真的想跟他一起过一辈子的人吧！
你的快乐和不快乐，我依然想参与，不要只等到不快乐时才找我聊。。
你依然是我好好的朋友。。

my DeAr Yeppy n Yaya

2009-03-02T01:52:00.000-08:00

OMG.. help me!

yes. anything?

we shy shy larz..

dont take my photo, paiseh larzz

exercising- keep fit

hi.. nice to meet u all

"pokemon ball"

sweet home

当我们开始一起

2009-02-27T06:06:00.000-08:00

人生当中,我们必定曾经拥有过一大班的朋友.是路过的,曾经一起上课的,被淡忘的,永远的死党,肩并肩的老友....但是我们一起经历过的,应该都不会被遗忘.在还没来到这人生地不熟的地方,只晓得会与其他四位不熟悉的人，一个熟到烂的朋友同住在一起.我们来自不同的生活环境,家庭背景,只懂我们有着共同的目标,共同需要完成的任务.还没抵达这里前,我却是期待又是紧张,猜测着你们的长相,担心着是否能和你们相处得来.毕竟同住在一起,不是简单的事.
第一次的相遇,我不懂整间家那么多人,到最后住下来的会是谁?
第一眼,我看见有人坐在角落扮起自闭来了..
第一眼,我看见有人被一个男人带走了..
第一眼,我看见有人"带起头来",负责干事情了..
接下来却是一个迷了路而来迟,长的白白,像受保护的女孩似的...
不可思议的是我们是如此谈得来,每天除了睡觉的时间我们都混在一起了.一同去学校,一同上课,一同复习功课...更是三餐都会一起.在一起每天打打闹闹的,感谢你们确实让我没那么想家.有你们我才不会那么寂寞。六个女生之间，或多或少有时候会有小争执，但是想到大家需要同住四年的时间那么长就会互相忍让了。有人会当起大姐大，有人偶尔会被排斥了，有些却跟谁感情特别好。。。
大家对对彼此没有了一层的戒心和防备，坦诚相对毕竟会带来完美的结局。把家里的事情说给班上的同学听，娱乐了大家。。很庆幸的是大家能打成一片，同学也是如此。或许就因为我们只有十六位吧！我们既是同手同脚，开心的，伤心的，谁都不能少了谁。。
希望我们能够继续好好相处下去，是好是坏我们都要一去渡过，一同分担。。
更没忘了，还有我们家另外两条小生命，小宠物。。yeppy n yaya。你们也要好好活下去！陪伴着我们哦！

nEw LIfE**

2009-01-27T09:41:00.000-08:00

my new life vf friends, new lecturers, new accomodation.....NEW***
new university...

National Institute of Opthalmology (NIO) / Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Hospital (THONEH)
so new to the people around us.. explained again n again.

(coz mostly people dunno about tat)

my new housemates...
....Pei Schier***she has a very very big and brown eyes ( looked exactly like the BUDSY in bed time stories) n she likes to cheat others tat her mum is portugis, she talked with high standard chinese..no wonder she cames from UEC

She is Sher Yin

....Sher Yin*** she prefers talk in phone almost all the time after class. however she insists telling us that the person in the phone is a gal but not a "good friend"

....Wei Ping*** she likes to introduce herself to the others that she has a big head and she was easily to be cheated

....Ru Fang*** she cant talk well in chinese...n she never know how to do housework

(''old old friend'') Yuen Nee*** (too much to talk about her)

we chatted almost every night in the smallest room in our house (warmer i think)?!
no matter how, they are so nice.....we shared our grandmother's stories all the time
we woke up very late and went to college 5-7 mins before the class started... wakaka (our condo jz opposite the college)

we have tried the A&W, MCD, Pizza in the 1st week.( noting to eat so far )
there was only 17 students in our class...the eldest one was 26years old ;the yougest one was 19years.....hopefully we will well connnected...so far so good... 14gals+3boys.....(so pity izzit) 1st day.. 6 of us called to the dean's office...
5th day.. our class scolded by senior...( broke records)

Anatomy class is the most difficult .... study about those muscle and bones ..OMG!

English class is the most stressed lecture....(public speaking again..sob sob) ...i m so nervous about it

Mathemaatics class will have many homeworks to do...

hopefully eveything will be going well there**

paiseh.. bad english.. any grammar mistakes... complain about it.. leave me a comments.. i hope i can improve it.. tq

不懂?!@#$@$%##

2009-01-11T08:19:00.000-08:00

快要去读书的心情..不知该怎么形容
在那里的日子会是怎样过的呢?
总觉得怪怪的..没有特别的心情..
更不知该从哪里收拾东西..该带什么?

一半点头绪都没...
要带哪个包包?哪件衣服???
之前都待在槟城,忘了带的,可以再回来拿..现在呢?
我的头大了...唯一的办法..(买过咯!哇咔咔!!!)
想着新的室友会是长成什么样子的?!
所谓,相见容易,相住难啊!!
真希望我们能够愉快的住在一起...加油!
租房子的纠纷都没解决..就想这些有的没的!Ding Dong**

到时候就流落街头吧! 看哪位好心人..收留我吧!哈哈!!!
真的有点不想离开这里啊!几乎每天和中学朋友吵吵闹闹的..偶尔回中学捣乱学弟,学妹还有老师..都挺开心的啊!

况且....
开学一个星期就要过新年啦!还真的只期待新年哦!
心痒痒的..早几天过吉隆坡的三只小猫...

有人一心想要去血拼...(再买些新年衣嘛!)
有人一心想要去熟悉环境...(讲骗话!)
有人一心想去找朋友...(找姐姐啦)
有人一心想去会情人...(不知道谁哦?)
都是醉翁之意不在酒的家伙!
sshhhhh....**