Appreciate**
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.The thing I can say about all this stuff that's going on right now is that I appreciate it.
Friday, May 31, 2013
工作@人生
不知不觉却工作了三个月的时间,工作在一个我从来没有想过我会在哪儿做工的,马六甲.始终,那并不是我理想的工作环境.我没想过再离家更远了.
因为没选择,我还是撑了三个月.最后种种原因,身体状况再不容许我留在那里了.虽然有知己的陪伴,但是我没有办法忽略了自己的健康.是是非非,有些人的不谅解,我只好看不见也装着听不见.好的事情我希望我永远记得,负面的影响我是应该撇开了.
我并不后悔在那里待过.....我该清楚我要的是什么.只是进化赶不上变化.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Saturday, March 31, 2012
嫉妒
听见了不该听的
激起了我的嫉妒心
不该有的态度
的确破坏了我一整天的心情
释放,改变态度
我却怕输
每个人都害怕
站在原地的我
我怕别人已经在超越自己
我怕别人拥有的
我却得不到
我该做些什么呢
改变。。。。
我该起步慢跑了=)
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
An Unexpected Question
After doing some initial testing on patients' eye, including those who done surgery yesterday.
Then here i met a fussy patient that she didn't happy with more than one person around her while she was doing the test.
And i was the one continued with her by assisting her in doing visual field test.
By that time, only i found out that her left eye was blind and her right eye was having advanced glaucoma.
During the test, she was there to tell me that she hated doing the visual field test that made her feel so strain and tired.
Halfway, during the resting time, this patient threw a question to me.
"How if my left over right eye becomes blind also?"
I totally blank out...........................................................................................................................
I think for a little while, then i answered, "Don't worry, our doctor will help as much as she can."
Now, i wonder how is the feeling of a patient when she knows that she is going to become blind?
Monday, March 26, 2012
2 weeks of industrial posting
Vista Eye Specialist, Bangsar
time passed and it had been one week posting at Vista Eye Specialist.
the staffs at Vista were professional and the ophthalmologist was so friendly.
Dr Shamala
they taught me much more than i can learn during lecture and the technology at Vista is so much advanced that i was surprised during the first day i was there.
there was self experience during facing with the real patient.
autorefractor with IOP and K reading.
phoropter with fully automatic functioning.
Orbscan, IOL master, Humphrey and OCT that was so common at Vista.
i saw the real cases there, and coming week im going to enter the operation theater for LASIK and no-blade cataract surgery.
the most important thing is that, i wont be seeing any blood during the surgery.
during the first day, i found it was boring to be there and nothing for me to do.
but now, i am so busy in dilating patients' eye, doing autorefractor, Humphrey visual field test and become doctor's assistant.
all of these making me feel more interested to become a optom.
if my future working environment similar as vista, sure i will find it great!!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
say hi, to my blog
only when after i spent some times at home,
only when i need to shift back to pj,
i will browse my own blog....
looking back something i have posted,
reading back the feeling i had before.
holiday is still coming to the end.
bye home, and hi to pj room.
say CHEERS!!! to myself=)
since there's lot of assignments waiting for me.
time is rushing....
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Sunday, October 3, 2010
the real side of me ^^
i keep telling u, i wont throw tantrum at others..
i keep telling u, i wont and i wont...
but i finally i did!
after one year we been together, today u saw that..
the real side of me revealed.. not that i'm pretending..
just that i'm the way i'm....
i shouted, i raised my tone, and i cried.
just only because u told me not to do that >.<
sorry baby. i know i shouldn't be so narrowness.
i'm not that princess at home anymore..
people who knows me well knew that,
for my own good, they're not afraid to shout at me just like that.
people who dont know me well,
they will never do this.
baby, i know u said that because of my own good.
now, u realised that i'm fragile.. please handle me with care, love and respect.
i'mma trying to change, promise!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I'm so lonely here
Friday, July 30, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
2months holiday coming to the end soon
but i never feel bored, not even a second.
i enjoyed being lazy, laying on the sofa, taking a nap.
hanging out with them, breakfast, teatime, or supper?
no stress, no worries... here i being so simple.
never feel like going back to pj, being a hypocrite.
i have no choice, except accept all these things.
a university, that the management was horrible and unfair.
a house, an accommodation that i'm so sad and hurt to live there.
a house that nobody wanna take any responsibility on it.
a place that we are not willing to stay even one more second.
And life, i must change it.......
Friday, July 23, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
A happening day!!
wink wink!!
Friday, June 25, 2010
51天~
因为,你看不懂华语。
你也快要不会说华语了。
我好久没跟你说话了。
你知道,我还是会很担心你吗?
尤其是现在放假在家无所事事的时候。
担心着你的工作应付不来,
担心着你会不会再被烫伤。
每天早上特别早醒来,只在等你上网。
如果等不到,只好又睡回去了。
每天都有很多事情想告诉你,想跟你分享的。
久了没说,我却都忘了。
想起来时,每样东西你却发现我已经说过很多次了。
现在,却不知觉的自己说话越来越像你了。
在这,我是在重复着你说的话。
在这,闷了,没你在陪我做无聊的事情。
吃鸡肉,没你在,没人弄干净鸡肉再给我吃。
没你在这,我不会再吃菜。
我想念,在我闹情绪时,你总是给我一个大大的拥抱。
你几时才要回来?
51 天。。我等。。等。。。
我很想念。。
还是可以一个人生活,虽然还是不习惯。。
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
命运不能被选择,但是能靠自己的努力改变生命!
Monday, June 21, 2010
when u're there and i'm here
u left for almost 2 weeks already.
ur dinner, my breakfast.
i wake up, it's time for u to sleep.
so i wake up early and u stay up late to webcam.
u went to work, i'm still at home.
u went to travel, i'm still at home.
u went to shopping, i'm still at home.
i'm waiting for u.
i miss u!!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
i'm sick again
everytime, during holiday when i'm back at home.
sure i'll sick!!
doctor said because of the weather here.
i'm allergic with that.
mum said maybe i miss the doctor very much or long time ady didnt pay money for that doctor.
but this time is the worst!!
asthma non-stop.. can't talk since i'm lack of energy.
didn't bath for the whole day.
sweat... i'm smelly >.<
hope i will recover soon.
i'm tired even that i slept for the whole day.
i'm still havent hang out with friends.
Monday, June 14, 2010
still clearly in my mind
almost one week, i cant get to listen to ur voice.
almost one week, i cant get to act as a cat.
it will continue for 2more months.
no chance for me to do so. looking at ur picture, thinking of u. babe, i'm pretty much miss u. can't get to tell u everything happened in my life. haha, i'm sure u'll miss my grandma's story right?? gonna spam ur message box!!
worrying that when i meet u jz tell u everything, it's too late. and i will forgotten every single things. told my mum and cousin about u =) sweetest thing ever. once i heard ur favourite song, i smile at myself.
babe, i'm still remember by that time i'm walking into the boarding room. we going take different flight, u going to london and i'm going back home. felt so sad to leave u there alone. once i turned back, glad that u're still standing there and smile at me.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
困扰着我的你
我恨了,我的确恨了。
是你让我太累,是你让我不懂如何面对你。
每个人问起你,我不懂怎样的回应是最好的。
曾替你想过,站在每个不懂的点看待你,考虑你的事。
为你寻找种种的借口,往好的一面想。
很抱歉的,每到最后的结局会是我们都不想看到的。
不是我一个人的绝望,是大家对你的绝望。
这个世界,不是我一个人的,我无法掌控。
但是,我希望我还可以改变。
你的自以为是,你的自大,你的骄傲。。
难道,你没发觉到事情都变的不一样吗?
请问到最后你得到的是什么?
终是以为自己是成熟的,独立的。。
试问你自己做了什么是成熟的?
不管在哪里,那个角落。。我去到哪里。。
为什么?你还是每个人口中的话题?
难道,你就是有让人说不完的是非吗?
我厌倦了。我不再替你担心。。我也不会默默的了。
你的事,我的事。。。可以像黑和白。。分得那么清楚。
也请你,不要为难我,好吗?
为难我,去到哪里,每个人都对你的是是非非那么有兴趣。
我一辈子,欠了你多少?
只是,我想走的远一点。。
我也想有我的生活。。我自己个儿的朋友。
没有了真实的我和你, 只有客套的我和你。。。
我很想跟你讲清楚。