Friday, August 28, 2009

一觉醒来。。


熬夜了快一个星期,累都累垮了。
整整八天的测验,不拼有不行,但却又感觉懒懒的。
还是怕考不好,却让自己失望,失去存在的意义。
考了五天,今天终于可以暂停一下,下个星期再接下去。
坚持到最后,我还是倒了,病了,累了。
刚一放学回来,就急着倒下去,睡个好觉。
可却又很难入睡。 两个星期的测验是我一个星期的恶梦!
最后,还是睡着了。但也还是梦见了。
这次的梦却是甜美的,因为那是我渴望的。
我有多想,多想,我就永远活在那梦里了。
是你,哥。已经半年没见到你了。
一个放假,我去了槟城三次,去碰碰运气是否可以在你做工的地方,只想在远方看到你。
但却还是看不见你的踪影,我也没想过要打给你。
没见到你是我这个放假唯一的遗憾!
你从来不知道,我有多么希望,我可以,我真的可以跟你好好的聊天。
我们并没有吵架,但也是没什么话说的。
我们都不曾先开口。要跟你说话,需要我提起了勇气。
在梦境里,是我好久好久没回家了。
一到家,是你,是你,在客厅等我回来。
一看见我,并不是我先开口叫哥,而是你先开口。
嗯,你回来了。
你还跟我说了好多话哦!你开始关心了我。
我有多么的安慰啊!因为,你从来不知道我有多希望你常回家,我可以看到你。
你拿东西给我吃,帮我拿东西,你问我在这里过得好吗?
我有多想告诉你,我好想你…………
我们还可以像小时候那样吗?
每次,有好多话想说,但又说不出口。
是因为你有了女朋友,你跟家人的话也多了。
想你跟家人的关系越来越好,跟我们说好多话题。
多想,沉醉在那个画面里,不要再醒过来。
有哥哥的疼爱,我想胜过了大部分。
多么希望,每一年生日,可以吃到哥为我做的生日蛋糕。
我也相信,哥,你其实是很疼爱,在乎我们的,只是你从来不说出口。
我哭了。。。


我也相信,你该不会看到这个吧!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Sorry to u, for making u disappointed on me. Sorry to myself, for dreaming in my own world.

"No use if u just say it out and didnt take any action!" my dear, u told me this.
GOSH! i jz realised tat how serious condition, i hv fall into...
i told u, i wanna make a difference,i told u again n again.
bt now,i have no more excuse to say after u told me this...
seriously, i m ...
it seemed like u all are moving in front, moving toward the life they wanted for so long time ago.
n i m still on the same step!
although, u r bz searching for wat u want,i knew u r tired n u ever think to give up.
bt finally, u found!ur life is meaningful, n the most important thing u live happily, u no need to rely on others, no need to live for others.
how about me? i m still the same! i spent a lot of money n finding excuse for myself for being so.
i hate the life being now.
although i know sometimes need to enjoy n relax, bt it seemed like i m enjoying most of the time.
hanging around after class or staying at home doing nothing,except online n do some homeworks.
izzit this kind of live, i want?
can i make it difference!

Monday, August 10, 2009

small gathering between us *_*

cnee n jyin stay overnight at my hse.
**syee, lian, waiting for u all**

"yuan steamboat"...

finally, we met again^^


wow!!

since i came to study in kl january, this was the 1st small gathering between us**** my primary-secondary friends.
everyone is bz+ing vf their own stuff n studies.
it was so hard to meet vf u all, need to make an appoinment!!

i have an interesting day vf u guys tat night joined with my housemates.