Sorry to u, for making u disappointed on me. Sorry to myself, for dreaming in my own world.

"No use if u just say it out and didnt take any action!" my dear, u told me this.
GOSH! i jz realised tat how serious condition, i hv fall into...
i told u, i wanna make a difference,i told u again n again.
bt now,i have no more excuse to say after u told me this...
seriously, i m ...
it seemed like u all are moving in front, moving toward the life they wanted for so long time ago.
n i m still on the same step!
although, u r bz searching for wat u want,i knew u r tired n u ever think to give up.
bt finally, u found!ur life is meaningful, n the most important thing u live happily, u no need to rely on others, no need to live for others.
how about me? i m still the same! i spent a lot of money n finding excuse for myself for being so.
i hate the life being now.
although i know sometimes need to enjoy n relax, bt it seemed like i m enjoying most of the time.
hanging around after class or staying at home doing nothing,except online n do some homeworks.
izzit this kind of live, i want?
can i make it difference!